Wednesday, October 28, 2015

#BlackLivesMatter: The Racist Element of the Atheist Community

Last weekend I had the pleasure of meeting Mandisa Thomas a fellow Atheist and founder and current President of Black Nonbelievers, Inc. During that meeting she talked about why it was important to have a space where Black Atheists can meet in safe numbers. I personally believe that when we create spaces for Black folks, it is important to note that if privilege & racism didn't exist, we wouldn't need said spaces.



Too often, when we Black folk talk about our plights, issues and cultural aspects that are unique to us, White people, knowingly and unknowingly interject themselves into the conversation and make a very post racial argument. It is nice that many Whites would love a post racial society, but as long as there is a school to prison pipeline, discrimination in hiring, institutional racism and etc, we will never be post racial. Whether we like it or not privilege is rooted in skin tone and it will take years to break that centuries old social construct. Black Lives Matter would not have to be a movement(and I repeat) "if black people in the United States were not systemically, institutionally, traditionally, practically, diminished, marginalized, minimized, denigrated, persecuted and discriminated against as a matter of everyday course in actually thousands of ways no white person ever has had to endure." White people are not used the word "no" and many are sorely unaware of their privilege. When called on that privilege, they feel like they are being called racist and even go as far as to play as if they are being victimized.

White privilege (or white skin privilege) is a term for societal privileges that benefit white people in western countries beyond what is commonly experienced by non-white people under the same social, political, or economic circumstances.

You cannot be victimized by the truth, the only thing the truth will do is enhance your ignorance (denial) or wake you the fuck up. Privileged people (White) tend to look down on and grimace at people who do not socially identify with their sociocultural norms. "I just simply want it to be known that we must all learn our privileges, prejudices and isms. I recently have spent a lot of my time calling folks out on their White Privilege only to get push back due to the perceived idea that I am implying that all White people are racist. I, and many others do not think this way at all..." It is so embedded that they don't even they don't even notice it and turn it around on those they are victimizing. If you look at the screenshot above, you will see that this person willingly diminished the Black Lives and reduced our socially constructed race down to that of Ultra Violet rays. I have to say that my melanin has made a world of difference when it comes to opportunities, life chances and overall societal treatment, and it has been rough. To diminish the struggles of what Black folks go through is in fact perpetuating racism and privilege. WHY? The reason why, is because White folks rich and poor do not have a shared living experience with that of the collective Black community and its spectrum of beliefs that lie within. Why waste so much time trying to look for common ground instead of celebrating differences?

"As a Black man I see the images that illustrate that there are two ways to live get educated or live a street life. We get beat down by those who look like us when we show signs of intelligence and are belittled for being educated. Then in many cases, we are seen as threatening by our White counterparts who in many cases have what they got from nepotism and favoritism. Now think on this for a second, I have not even gone into the depths of talking about my being Gay or Queer. We are taught that in order to be a strong Black man, we must be providers who are masculine, tough, lack emotional depth, produce children, believe in God, and find a wife in order to succeed. I believe in taking on that personification that we buy into misogyny, patriarchy, machismo, homophobia, effemiphobia and hyper - masculinity.  We are forced fed to believe in God even if some of us know in our hearts that Christianity is not what we truly believe in. As Black men, regardless of sexual orientation we are forced to live in some type of closet where we have to hide mental illnesses, health issues, atheism and then we have to wear a smile and be conscious of our society that is steeped in White supremacy in order to not get killed by that crooked cop for coming off as too strong, too educated and dare I say it? Wealthy." -  #ITLQBM

As a collective Atheists are treated badly in many circles, so why bring the Christianity driven constructs of hate and its ridiculous justifications. If racist members of the Atheist community think that they are better than Theists, they are DEAD wrong! Not only is the erasure they commit prevalent, but they argue Black on Black crime, in the same breath saying that its not about race. I said this, "The movement for Black lives is about deconstructing and dismantling a system of racism and White supremacy. We start with the police violence on Blackness, and work into other areas that have been very problematic in terms of criminalizing Blackness, perpetuating misogyny, limiting access to quality education, financial stability, access to proper health care and a host of others. The spectre of Black on Black crime is used as a tool in an attempt to say “Black people fix your problems at home before you hold us accountable.” That statement is dangerous in many ways, would there be Black on Black crime IF we had an equal playing field and there was no White privilege to be concerned with? Sociologically, Black on Black crime is actually less than that of White on White crime, we the Black people get a bad rap because society is socialized to see Black as impure, bad, putrid. This leads to internalized racism, the need for a White savior, doing everything possible to be the opposite of what ethnically comes along with being Black."

#BlackLivesMatter: The #AssaultAtSpringValleyHigh - Ben Fields Terminated

This morning Richland County Sheriff Leon Lott held a press conference in which he released information regarding the termination of former Deputy Ben Fields. There are a few problems with Sheriff Lott's statement:


First: He starts off talking about videos and the welcome presence of cameras, then he pivots into a dialog that "...videos are just a snapshot and don't tell a complete picture." He talked about getting a "full picture" with evidence and statements (OK), policies, and time frames. THEN, he goes on to say that the internal investigation was based solely on policy violations, which says to me he was all about covering his ass.

Second: He emphasized the statements from the teacher and the administrator as if he was building a case against the victimized student and propping up former Deputy Fields. "...this incident started with a very disruptive student in a class. This student was not allowing the teacher to teach and not allowing the students to learn. she was very disruptive, she was very disrespectful and she started this whole instance with her actions. She refused to leave the class as directed by the teacher. She refused to follow his instructions. He called for assistance from the school administrator. The school administrator got there. He was African American. And he attempted to get her to leave the class also, she refused his instruction and continued her disrespect with him. All the while students were still in the class, the are supposed to be there learning. their education was put on hold while this disruptive student had to be dealt with. At that point school resource officer Ben Fields was called, the situation was explained to him. He attempted to get the student to leave. he was then asked to remove the student from class. and at that point I think we have seen various videos. I will note that the teacher and the school administrator in her statements, both fully support the actions of Ben Fields, they said that he acted appropriately, that he didn't use excessive force, he did what was necessary.That came from both of them who were present when this happened. The third video from another student who also supports officer Fields actually shows the student, female student, sticking Ben Fields and her resisting when he tried to get her from her chair. once he put his hands on her, he was allowed to do that. He placed her under arrest and verbally told her she was under arrest. He attempted to use force to make the arrest...."

Third: His official statement did not include any indication that he would charge Ben Fields with Official Oppression, assault or whatever else one can get charged with for excessive use of force.

Fourth: Lott never gave any indication that he would be dropping the "disturbing schools" charge against the victim and Niya Kenny.

Disturbing Schools Law for South Carolina SECTION 12. Section 16-17-420 of the 1976 Code: "Section 16-17-420. 

(A) It shall be unlawful: (1) For any person willfully or unnecessarily (a) to interfere with or to disturb in any way or in any place the students or teachers of any school or college in this State, (b) to loiter about such school or college premises or (c) to act in an obnoxious manner thereon; or (2) For any person to (a) enter upon any such school or college premises or (b) loiter around the premises, except on business, without the permission of the principal or president in charge. 

(B) Any person violating any of the provisions of this section shall be guilty of a misdemeanor and, on conviction thereof, shall pay a fine of not more than one thousand dollars or be imprisoned in the county jail for not more than ninety days. (C) The summary courts are vested with jurisdiction to hear and dispose of cases involving a violation of this section. If the person is a child as defined by Section 63-19-20, jurisdiction must remain vested in the Family Court."

Fifth: Lott did not bring up the statements by two students that spoke to them media on behalf of the victim. Remember, Niya Kenny gave a statement of support for the victim "I know this girl don't got nobody and I couldn't believe this was happening...I had never seen nothing like that in my life, a man use that much force on a little girl. A big man, like 300 pounds of full muscle. I was like 'no way, no way.' You can't do nothing like that to a little girl. I'm talking about she's like 5'6"...I was screaming 'What the f, what the f is this really happening?' I was praying out loud for the girl," says Kenny. "I just couldn't believe this was happening I was just crying and he said, since you have so much to say you are coming too. I just put my hands behind my back."

The second statement came from Tony Robinson Jr. who stated that "She really hadn't done anything wrong...She said that she had took her phone out, but it was only for a quick second.....When I saw what was about to happen my immediate first thing to think is let me get this on camera. This is going to be something that not only I'm I going to be like 'wow did this really happened at my class' but just something that everybody else needs to see. This is something that we can't let this just pass by.....He asked her again, 'will you move, will you move.' She said 'no I have not done anything wrong.; Then he said I'm going to treat you fairly. And she said 'I don't even know who you are.. And that is where it started right there.....I've never seen anything so nasty looking, so sick to the point that you know, other students are turning away, don't know what to do, and are just scared for their lives.....That's supposed to be somebody that's going to protect us. Not somebody that we need to be scare off, or afraid....That was wrong. There was no justifiable reason for why he did that to that girl."

Other resources:

Richland County Sheriff's Department Citizens' Advisory Council

Tuesday, October 27, 2015

#BlackLivesMatter: The Criminalization of Blackness & the #AssaultAtSpringValleyHigh

The assault of a Young Woman



South Carolina school officer and Richland County Sheriff's Deputy Ben Fields grabbed a high school student from her chair, knocked her to the floor and dragged her to the front of her classroom yesterday. This post will outline the events of the last 24 hours, to give a full picture of what is happening. 
One of her classmates Niya Kenny, took up for the student during the interaction and recorded part of it, was taken into custody & charged with disturbing schools. Here is what she had to say to WLTX:

"Niya Kenny, 18, is speaking out after she was taken into custody in her Spring Valley High School math class. She says she was standing up for her classmate who was being arrested by Student Resource Officer Ben Fields.

"I was crying, screaming and crying like a baby," says Kenny. "I was in disbelief."

Related Coverage:Video Surfaces of Incident at Spring Valley High School

"I know this girl don't got nobody and I couldn't believe this was happening," Kenny explained. "I had never seen nothing like that in my life, a man use that much force on a little girl. A big man, like 300 pounds of full muscle. I was like 'no way, no way.' You can't do nothing like that to a little girl. I'm talking about she's like 5'6"."

Kenny says her classmate was not participating and was asked to leave the room by her teacher. When she refused an administrator was called in and asked her to leave. She refused and Officer Fields was called in, asking her the same thing.

Kenny filmed a part of the altercation on her phone. The six second video shows Officer Fields arresting the student.

"I was screaming 'What the f, what the f is this really happening?' I was praying out loud for the girl," says Kenny. "I just couldn't believe this was happening I was just crying and he said, since you have so much to say you are coming too. I just put my hands behind my back."

Her mother Doris Kenny was shocked and upset when she saw the video.

"My child, and I'm not mad at her, she was brave enough to speak out against what was going on and didn't back down and it resulted in her being arrested," says Doris Kenny.

Her daughter was charged with disturbing schools.

"But looking at the video, who was really disturbing schools? Was it my daughter or the officer who came in to the classroom and did that to the young girl?
"

Then another student came forward to WLTX:

"Tony Robinson Jr. spoke exclusively with News19 Monday night about what happened between a student and an officer. A video that he took shows the officer forcibly removing a student from her chair, dragging her several feet, then handcuffing her.

"It was definitely a scary experience," he said.

Robinson says he went into the morning thinking it would be a normal, routine day of school. He was in math class, and he and his classmates were working on their assignments.

Around 10:30 a.m., the girl who had the confrontation with the officer was working on her computer, and had her phone out, Robinson said. He said the teacher asked her for her phone, but she said no. An administrator was then called to the room, and Robinson said he pleaded with the girl to get out of her seat, but she didn't.

"She really hadn't done anything wrong," Robinson said. "She said that she had took her phone out, but it was only for a quick second."

While she didn't comply, Robinson said the girl was apologetic.

Then the officer, identified as Ben Fields, was called to the class. Robinson said when Fields came in, he asked Robinson's friend to move a desk. According to the student, Fields then shut the girl's computer, and moved it to another desk.

Robinson felt something was wrong, and pulled out his phone and began recording.

"When I saw what was about to happen my immediate first thing to think is let me get this on camera. This is going to be something that not only I'm I going to be like 'wow did this really happened at my class' but just something that everybody else needs to see. This is something that we can't let this just pass by.

The officer then began speaking with the student.

"He asked her again, 'will you move, will you move.' She said 'no I have not done anything wrong.; Then he said I'm going to treat you fairly. And she said 'I don't even know who you are.. And that is where it started right there."

Moments later, things turned physical.

"I've never seen anything so nasty looking, so sick to the point that you know, other students are turning away, don't know what to do, and are just scared for their lives," Robinson said. "That's supposed to be somebody that's going to protect us. Not somebody that we need to be scare off, or afraid."

"That was wrong. There was no justifiable reason for why he did that to that girl.
"

Deputy Ben Fields:

According to ABC News -

"The school resource officer was identified as Ben Fields, according to the Richland County Sheriff's Department. Fields joined the program in 2008 and received a Culture of Excellence award for proving to be an exceptional role model in 2014.

The school website lists Fields as the football team's defensive line coach and strength and conditioning coach.

The Richland County Sheriff's Office said Monday night Fields would be placed on administrative duties.

Fields is one of two resource officer's for Spring Valley High, according to the school district website. The district said it "contracts with the Richland County Sheriff's Department to provide School Resource Officers (SRO) throughout the district. Each SRO is assigned to respond to any facility without a full-time deputy in proximity to his/her primary assignment. These assignments are geographical so as to provide the most rapid response by SROs."

"All schools are instructed to call 911 first in the event of any emergency," the district said. "In doing so, the closest on-duty deputy would be dispatched in addition to the SROs."

Each high school in the district has two resource officers while each middle school, elementary school and alternative school has one officer.
"

According to WLTX & the Associated Press - 

"The South Carolina school resource officer seen on video pulling a female high school student from her desk and dragging her across a classroom has previously been sued and accused of excessive force and targeting black suspects.

In 2013, a student expelled from Spring Valley High School, where Senior Deputy Ben Fields works, accused the deputy, who is white, of targeting black students after saying the expelled student was a gang member. That case is set to go to trial in January.


In 2010, federal court records show a jury sided with Fields after a black couple accused Fields of excessive force and battery during a 2005 noise complaint arrest in Columbia.

On Monday, Fields was seen on video pulling a black female student from her desk during class. Fields has been put on leave, and the sheriff has asked federal authorities to investigate. Authorities say race did not play a role in the incident.

In a third lawsuit, a woman who reported suspicion of child abuse accused Fields and another deputy of battery and violating her rights during a 2006 arrest. That case was dismissed in 2009.
"

Local Responses:


Columbia Mayor Steve Benjamin's response:

"This needs to be dealt with quickly and transparently," Benjamin said in a Facebook statement, adding that this was not "CPD [the Columbia Police Department] or representative of policing that builds trust or confidence!"


Richland County Sheriff Leon Lott stated to the local media that he wanted quick answers and voluntarily requested that the FBI and the DOJ to conduct an independent investigation of the violent  incident at Spring Valley."It's very disturbing what happened today. It's something I have to deal with and that's what we're going to be doing"

A statement regarding the violent actions from the Richland School District Two Superintendent Dr. Debbie Hamm was released:

"Our District is deeply concerned about an incident that occurred at Spring Valley High School today. The incident took place between a school resource officer employed by the Richland County Sheriff's Department and a student. Video of the incident is circulating on social media. Student safety is and always will be the District's top priority. The District will not tolerate any actions that jeopardize the safety of our students. Upon learning of the incident, school and district administrators began an investigation. We are working closely and in full cooperation with the Richland County Sheriff's Department to conduct a thorough and complete investigation.Pending the outcome of the investigation, the District has directed that the school resource officer not return to any school in the District."

In another statement Richland Two Board Chairman Jim Manning said:

"I have watched the video several times and there is no doubt that the video is extremely disturbing. The amount of force used on a female student by a male officer appears to me to be excessive and unnecessary. As the parent of a daughter in Richland School District Two I can assure you that we are taking this matter very seriously. The district superintendent has been in constant contact with the Richland County Sheriff to express our concern over this matter and the district has banned the deputy in question from all District Two property. The Sheriff has assured us that a full investigation is under way and that he wants the same questions answered that we all have about this matter.

At this time, I will reserve further comment and judgement until the full investigation has been completed. However, I want to assure you that the Richland Two Board and District staff are committed to the safety of all of our students and are taking immediate steps to ensure that our students are treated with the full respect and dignity that they deserve while in our care.
"

The federal response (so far):


"The Columbia FBI Field Office, the Civil Rights Division, and the U.S. Attorney's Office for the District of South Carolina have opened a civil rights investigation into the circumstances surrounding the arrest of a student at Spring Valley High School," FBI Special Agent in Charge David Thomas said in a statement Tuesday. " The FBI will collect all available facts and evidence in order to determine whether a federal law was violated. As this is an ongoing investigation, per Department of Justice policy we are unable to comment further at this time."




Saturday, October 24, 2015

#ITLQBM: Atheism & The Black Community

Intersectionality Through the Lens of a Queer Black Man


Today I finally had the pleasure of meeting Mandisa Thomas a fellow Atheist and founder and current President of Black Nonbelievers, Inc. The Houston Black Nonbelievers put on an event called "'Growing Secularism in the Black Community' - HBN Presents Mandisa Thomas" and at the event Mandisa spoke about taking the lead as a Black woman and her experiences over the last five years with founding and running Black Nonbelievers. What I found out is that me and her share, literally the same sentiments as it pertains to acknowledging our existence and being more visible in the Black community. This is something I do every chance that I get, and like Mandisa, many of my interactions are peaceful and have great outcomes.

But, there are more often than not, experiences that we share and are made to feel like Black folks cannot be bigoted toward those who look like them. For context, a Bigot is a person who is intolerant toward those holding different opinions. As I stated in my original Intersectionality post that "We are forced fed to believe in God even if some of us know in our hearts that Christianity is not what we truly believe in. As Black men, regardless of sexual orientation we are forced to live in some type of closet where we have to hide mental illnesses, health issues, atheism and then we have to wear a smile and be conscious of our society that is steeped in White supremacy...Could you imagine what it is like to be a Black Queer Atheist? I the eyes of some, Atheism is seen as worse than even being Queer!" and in a subsequent post where I said that "I have friends from all walks of life and many different belief systems as it pertains to religion, rites and rituals. While I pride myself on being an ally to my religious counterparts, I can't help but to feel belittled and left out when some of them speak. I actually feel bad for other faiths that constantly and consistently have to take a backseat to Christianity and those who choose to use their Christian Privilege in unsavory ways."

Christian privilege - is the system of advantages bestowed upon Christians in some societies. This system arises out of the presumption that the belief in Christianity is a social norm, leading to the exclusion of the nonreligious and members of other religions through institutional religious discrimination. Christian privilege can also lead to the neglect of outsiders' cultural heritage and religious practices.

Religious discrimination - is valuing or treating a person or group differently because of what they do or do not believe. Specifically, it is when adherents of different religions (or denominations) are treated unequally, either before the law or in institutional settings such as employment or housing.
Religious discrimination is related to religious persecution, the most extreme forms of which would include instances in which people have been executed for beliefs perceived to be heretic. Laws which only carry light punishments are described as mild forms of religious persecution or as religious discrimination.

The funny thing is that I always joke about knowing where the cameras are at all times, and Mandisa was just recently put in a position where someone refused to check their religious privilege. As featured in a post on Patheos:

"A black Christian woman approached Mandisa Thomas and immediately began insulting her. This woman told Mandisa that she had a “slave mentality” for simply being an atheist and also called white atheists “white demons.”...It was admirable how Mandisa could keep her composure while defending the attacks thrown at us. This event demonstrated another example of Christian privilege (can you imagine the media attention if atheists behaved this way), but also the important intersection of race and religion."


Garrett Lovejoy also recorded some of the altercation.

The idea that Black folks can question another Black person's Blackness is not far fetched and the sad part is many Blacks use Christianity to justify it. They do it to the LGBT element of the Black community quite often (pictured right), so being an Atheist isn't far behind on the list of reason to question one's Blackness. Like I said before, "I will not tolerate is being made to choose between my Blackness and being Gay, as neither are a choice. Some may disagree, but do take note that without Bayard Rustin and so many others, the civil rights movement of the 60s would look nothing like it did. The Black LGBT contributions to our Black community is undeniable!" and in that same vein I will not tolerate the erasure of what Black Atheists have contributed to Black and American history.


It is bad enough that there are some elements of the White population who use Christian privilege to justify racism and this privilege feeds into White supremacy and ultimately White privilege. In general there is an unfounded hatred toward Black and Brown bodies and things get worse when ethnicity and religion are intertwined into the scenario. So why should we have to deal with it in our own community?

Thursday, October 15, 2015

#HERO: BEN HALL & THE OPPOSITION MUST LEARN TO RESPECT US!!!

The ordinance gives new special privileges to two special interests, neither of which qualify as true “minorities” requiring special legal protection." We are not special interests, we are MINORITIES, we are not a new group and in fact we are of different races and ethnicities. It is clear that they just want to discriminate against those who choose to live their truth.

"Mayor Parker’s ordinance is built on deception. It is not about protecting the rights of women, racial minorities, the disabled, elderly or military personnel. There are already important laws on the federal, state and local levels that protect such individuals from discrimination for employment, housing and access to public accommodations." While this may be true, who has the type of money it would take to go through all of the required processes in order to challenge discrimination? This ordinance would help with mediation and offset many costs.

"The ordinance’s naming of these groups is a ruse in an attempt to hide the ordinance’s real purpose, which is to make “sexual orientation” and “gender identification” two new protected classes."  There is no ruse, and you are right these are two classes that have NO protection on any level of government. ALL Houstonians deserve equal protection, THESE ARE HUMAN RIGHTS!



THIS IS NOT MAYOR PARKER'S ORDINANCE!!! 

This is what Mayoral candidate Ben Hall
and his friends at the Campaign for Houston are saying about Mayor Parker and us. We are in a state of war and we are not fighting back like we should to secure rights for ourselves! Yesterday, we found out that Lieutenant Governor Dan Patrick bought TV airtime for the opposition, which I suspect contributed to the ads the opposition clogged the airwaves with. One of those ads full of false claims aimed at scaring people into voting against Proposition 1 was produced by Hall. He is attacking the Trans community and claiming it is protect women's privacy and young girls from rape. He claims in the video that we are registered sex offenders, that we are pedophiles and that the ordinance poses an imminent threat.

Here is the REAL threat, people like Hall and his hater friends who want to impose biblical principles on human beings just trying to live their lives and love who they love. This is the hate that perpetuates and incites violence on the LGBT community, especially the Trans Community of Color (specifically Black). Across this country there have been, at last count 20 murders and I suspect that this was caused by folks who were emboldened by the language and rhetoric above. It is sad that these people (many of the) are Black and refuse to understand that we exist and are Black too. They do not care that they are alienating and hurting the very people they claim to protect. This whole situation is shrouded in patriarchy, sexism, Transphobia, Homophobia, Biphobia and depending on the character, racist. We need a HERO, a recourse to fight people like them and they are fighting tooth and nail to be able to discriminate. 

We can no longer wait for the weak campaign that Houston Unites is putting on against these haters, we have to stick up for ourselves as Black LGBT folks. Bless their hearts, they wouldn't know the first thing about being in the hood talking to US nor are they calling us at these phone banks. This is not a slight toward Houston Unites and we must defend ourselves from the parts of our own Black community who seek to ignore our existence. We must make them acknowledge and respect us for our existence, contributions and even the fact that some of us have the same blood running through our veins. The time now, to change the tide, not just for HERO, but for a community to actually be a community. What about being gentrified, what about our schools, what about the REAL issues instead of focusing hate toward us who deserve an level playing field?








My Coming Out Story: I Am HIV Positive

I recently interviewed with Olivia Ford for Poz Magazine about HIV and #BlackLivesMatter and here is a snippet of the interview entitled Finding common cause fighting violence and HIV:



Click here to read a digital edition of this article.

“It was just too much at one time,” Ashton P. Woods remembers.

Woods was already an activist. In the late 1990s, at age 15, he started one of the first Gay-Straight Alliances in his home city of New Orleans. He volunteered and interned with progressive political candidates, advocated for women’s and LGBT rights, and advanced get-out-the-vote efforts in Houston, Texas, where he now lives.

Then Trayvon Martin was murdered, and Michael Brown. Their killers went free. Videos of black people being abused or slain by police began to surface, again and again: Eric Garner. Walter Scott. Sandra Bland.

“It’s different when you know something is happening, to then have there be visual proof,” muses Woods. “It infuriates, and it makes you want justice—what people have been telling you is imaginary and untrue has now been proven to be true.”

Woods marks the shooting death of Michael Brown at the hands of a police officer in Ferguson, Missouri, as the event that connected him to the movement now known as Black Lives Matter.


The phrase dates back to 2013, following George Zimmerman’s acquittal for the slaying of Martin, an unarmed 17-year-old. Alicia Garza, one of the three black women who founded #BlackLivesMatter, ended an impassioned love letter to the black community on Facebook with the phrase. Her good friend Patrisse Cullors reposted the message, adding the hashtag. Both seasoned community organizers, the two put their heads together, along with a third friend and sister activist, the digitally savvy Opal Tometi, to create online platforms under that banner.

“Being part of Black Lives Matter fell in my lap, and I felt right at home,” says Woods, who organizes with Black Lives Matter Houston. Woods does not bring HIV into the center of his activism, though he is openly living with the virus. The main goal of his activism is to ensure that people in his community, particularly black LGBT people, are actively engaged in politics and are viewing that work intersectionally.

“One reason I started doing Black Lives Matter work in the context that I do it was that I kept seeing this focus on the bodies of black men,” Woods says. “What about the bodies of black women? Of black trans women? Of black gay folks?”

Black Lives Matter has been called the new civil rights movement. It is unapologetically affirming of queer and trans experiences; two of the network’s three co-founders, Garza and Cullors, identify as queer... CONTINUE READING

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Six months ago I went public about my HIV status for various reasons much bigger than myself. We have reached a point in history where it is time for those of us who are HIV positive to step up and fight HIV criminalization, stigma and take our lives into our own hands. Let me take a step back and start from the beginning, as you know, I came out at age 15 and my knowledge of HIV was intermediate at best. At least I was smart enough to know that HIV and AIDS are two separate things, smart enough to have my first HIV and STD tests at 16 years old.

I will never forget the day when I took my first test, I had just left the now closed Gay & Lesbian Community center and wandered to the NO AIDS Task Force. It was at the Task Force that I took an OraQuick mouth swab (keep in mind that this was fairly new technology at the time) and it was my first time being nervous for 20 minutes. After this initial test, I would continue with a routine of testing every 3 or 6 months depending on how sexually active I was. Over 8 years of testing, then in April of 2008 I took a test at a drop in center in the Montrose area of Houston. Something felt different this time because the results took longer than normal to come back via the person who conducted my test. He came and he looked petrified, maybe because we knew each other, it was probably the hardest thing he had to do that day.

It took him about 3 minutes to even say what he needed to say to me, and when he finally revealed my results to me, it was like a horrible dream. The odd thing about the situation is that I was eerily calm and I usually like that in crisis mode. I flashed back to the fall of 2007 and early 2008 when I suddenly remembered the dry heaving coughs and the recurring flu like symptoms. This happened as I went through how I could have contracted it, and we talked about the fact that he needed to do a blood draw for a confirmatory test. By this point, Everything that I had learned about  HIV over the years came flooding back to me and as I broke out in hives I asked myself, "What you gone do bitch?" For context, the question meant that I could not sulk because it was always a risk that I was taking when I had unprotected sex and that I could handle it. A little while later, my blood test also came back confirmatory positive, I was set up with a care provider who would walk me through labs and how to maintain my health. One thing about Being HIV positive is that if you don't have the right people providing services to you, it could spell disaster and for the most part I was lucky (hindsight statement).



As far as coming out about my status to the world, I was pretty fearless given some of the things that I have been through. I will leave you with the post that made it known to the world:

"There are many closets to come out of and I have come out of the closet at the age of fifteen and identified as Gay/SGL and I have always known who I was attracted to from an early age. I came out of the closet as an Atheist  and I am UNAPOLOGETIC ABOUT WHO I AM. I respect and accept all of my intersections that make me Ashton P. Woods. I generally do not disclose my HIV status unless I know that I will be sexually active and have always felt that it was no one's business.

I am not coming out of this closet just for me, I am coming out of this closet for everyone who has be ostracized and made to feel nasty. Those of us who have HIV are healthier than most out in the general population, yet we Black gay men die at a higher rate from HIV than those who are in the group where HIV infection is actually the highest. I live UNAPOLOGETIC ABOUT WHO I AM, I accept me for who I am. It is time that you accept you for who you are! We are not nasty people, we are not contagious, we are doctors, lawyers, teachers, students, sons, daughters, mothers and fathers! I am HIV positive and I live a healthy life, I am a person , a whole person and I exist.

I think, as someone who lives with this every day of my life that we need HIV education that is all encompassing and inclusive of all communities. I am HIV positive and I am more than just that, I have stood when no one else would stand. Stand with me for my humanity, stand with me to break stigmas and help to educate our brothers and sisters about truths and break the myths.

My name is Ashton P. Woods and I am HIV positive."






Monday, October 12, 2015

My Coming Out Story: I am Atheist

SPECIAL NOTE: This post is special to me, because I am approaching the 10 month anniversary of the Strength In Number blog and this is the ONE HUNDREDTH post! When I started this blog in January, I never knew that I would reach over 20,000 followers and 100 posts. The goal of Strength In Numbers was and is to be unfiltered, uncensored and write the truth about issues and give opinions that did not have the influence of respectability politics. Know that I will continue to strive for those goals and reach new ones as this blog evolves, may this blog continue to intrigue and entertain you (scroll to the bottom of this for my top 10 posts)! - Ashton P. Woods
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In my previous installments of the "My Coming Out Story" series I talked about my initial coming out as gay, then I talked about being homeless,  some of my experiences with tragedy & triumph and finally about how I was led to my current home Houston, TX. This post will center a more recent period, the last two or so years where I finally came out of the Atheist Closet.

I remember the day it happened (coming out Atheist) and it was much like when I was questioning about my sexuality. I alluded to the fact that I am an Atheist without fully revealing it. Seems to be a theme, if you remember my first post: "The few things that I remember about this conversation is that it was a warm and sunny day in New Orleans and Mary, a classmate and I were talking about random societal issues (yes we were pretty advanced). During that conversation I blurted out, "I think that I might be gay..." and then the conversation continued with a thoughtful acknowledgement of my statement. That day turned out to be a precursor to when I would actually come out as gay and the way my life would change."

Christian privilege - is the system of advantages bestowed upon Christians in some societies. This system arises out of the presumption that the belief in Christianity is a social norm, leading to the exclusion of the nonreligious and members of other religions through institutional religious discrimination. Christian privilege can also lead to the neglect of outsiders' cultural heritage and religious practices.

Religious discrimination - is valuing or treating a person or group differently because of what they do or do not believe. Specifically, it is when adherents of different religions (or denominations) are treated unequally, either before the law or in institutional settings such as employment or housing.


Atheism - is the rejection of belief in the existence of deities.In a narrower sense, atheism is specifically the position that there are no deities.Most inclusively, atheism is the absence of belief that any deities exist. Atheism is contrasted with theism, which, in its most general form, is the belief that at least one deity exists.

What I said in this post (above) is very similar to what I did on that sunny day in New Orleans, and I know it wasn't as clear. I was really saying here that I never truly believed in a higher power and total dislike for the need of religion, ALL religion. I maintain that I respect the beliefs of all and the right to believe in a higher power. I actually touched on this in a previous post and stated, "The truth is that I see religion as a means of social control and domination for those who are in control of governments and other institutions that are used to govern. It does not mean that do not respect a person's convictions or belief in a higher power, and in my acceptance, I am exposed to the constant barrage of God this and prayer that memes, comments and posts via social media. The problem comes when I decide to make a post in reference to my Atheism, someone tries to flex their privilege and respond with some chastisement about how THEIR God is the real deal, mind you, I don't comment on others' posts when it regards religion! I have constantly question whether or not I want to go to certain events because someone will try to guilt me into a prayer circle or saying grace at a dinner."

Being an out Atheist brings on a line of questioning where folks like to challenge one on his or her morality. Let me be clear on the fact that  I still know right from wrong. My thought is that you do not have to believe in something, a higher power in order to do the right thing. by the same time in 2014 I had become fully comfortable with being an Atheist, as illustrated (left). Clearly, learning to be comfortable with my sexuality helped me to become more comfortable at a more rapid pace talking about and being out about my Atheism.

Over the course of that year, basically 2014, I lost friends who I thought would be more open minded about my willingness to show all of who I am.  One cannot be truly intersectional without being true to all of his or her identities:



The point is that, it is ok to be who you are, remember to respect others always, BUT demand that same respect back. If you don't get that respect, shut it down and move on. To those of you reading this post that are religious, please remember that being Black does not equal Theist. Black Atheists, Non Believers, Humanists ACTUALLY exist and for Atheists over all,  please stop trying to appeal to our sense of morality in hopes that we will come to your church, because yours is the best one. when someone tells you they don't believe, the default should not be "come to church with me next Sunday" or "I am working on you..." it should be a question of how you can be an ally...

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Friday, October 9, 2015

Check Your Religious Privilege - The Global Rally for Humanity & Islamophobia

The air is thick with anti Islam hate & I am not a happy camper about it. The Global Rally for Humanity is on the same day as the Million Man March which is tomorrow. The #JusticeOrElse event will take place tomorrow in Washington D.C. (wishing I could afford to be there) and given all that has happened with the movement for Black lives to matter, this event is important. But, there are those who feel the need to assert their Christian & White privilege and want to have an event wrapped in xenophobia, ethnocentrism and racism. The claim that the Justice or Else  - Million Man March is the impetus for these rallies, given that the event organizer is Louis Farrakhan and the Nation of Islam. Of the announced events, except for the D.C. rally, many are taking place at or near mosques and community centers unaffiliated with the Nation of Islam or the march itself.

October 10th, radical Imam Farrakhan and the Nation of Islam will be in DC preaching their anti-American hate. We’ve got about 3000 patriots going to DC to defend old glory, but those of us who can’t make it to DC are rallying up locally, at a mosque funded by American taxpayers against our will. Murfreesboro, TN. Time to let our voices be heard, Islamists are NOT going to destroy America!!” - Murfreesboro, Tennessee, event page

Here is a video the haters posted on Youtube:




Christian privilege - is the system of advantages bestowed upon Christians in some societies. This system arises out of the presumption that the belief in Christianity is a social norm, leading to the exclusion of the nonreligious and members of other religions through institutional religious discrimination. Christian privilege can also lead to the neglect of outsiders' cultural heritage and religious practices.

Religious discrimination - is valuing or treating a person or group differently because of what they do or do not believe. Specifically, it is when adherents of different religions (or denominations) are treated unequally, either before the law or in institutional settings such as employment or housing.

Ethnocentrism - is judging another culture solely by the values and standards of one's own culture. Ethnocentric individuals judge other groups relative to their own ethnic group or culture, especially with concern for language, behavior, customs, and religion.

Racism - the belief that all members of each race possess characteristics or abilities specific to that race, especially so as to distinguish it as inferior or superior to another race or races.

Xenophobia - intense or irrational dislike or fear of people from other countries.

White privilege (or white skin privilege) - is a term for societal privileges that benefit white people in Western countries beyond what is commonly experienced by non-white people under the same social, political, or economic circumstances.

Now here is a video from #JusticeOrElse:




Let me be Clear, these are not normal protests! Protesters will be armed and are planning,  as I stated earlier to gather outside mosques (at least 20 and at the March On Washington) in various locations around the United States. The protests are inspired by and are clearly the idea of  Phoenix anti-Muslim activist Jon Ritzheimer who has done something like this before, only on a much smaller scale.


Instead of me telling you what he is like here is an interview he gave to Anderson Cooper on CNN:


According to the Southern Poverty Law Center:

I’m going to tell everybody to utilize your Second Amendment [rights] in case we come under that much anticipated attack," he said. Ritzheimer never explained who he thought might attack them.

Angry rants promote rally, but deny ownership
Two days after posting a video announcing the protest, he posted another video disavowing any responsibility for the protests, saying he was not the “mastermind” – “No, I cannot take credit for such a wonderful rally” – but that he was avidly supporting it anyway. He punctuated that video by holding up a copy of the Koran and shooting it with a pistol.

In late August he posted another video that once again promoted the protest and attacked Nation of Islam leader Louis Farrakhan, who will be leading a protest Saturday in Washington D.C. Ritzheimer warned him not to carry out a purported plan to take down the American flag at the White House.

"Just know that we III Percent, we militiamen are standing at the ready across our nation,” he said. “And when you strike, we will strike back. We will level and demolish every mosque across this country."

Hopefully, like his first attempt at hate, this effort will fail. Just in case it does not fail, be vigilant, be safe and shout one voice #BLACKLIVESMATTER, because it is OUR BLACK & BROWN BODIES UNDER ATTACK, in every way possible.

Thursday, October 8, 2015

My Coming Out Story: The Foreshadowing

Previously: "In a nutshell, I did great in the Army and decided to forego a career before it even started. I left basic and returned home to New Orleans and immediately enrolled in school and they wanted me to take all of these different classes that I did not need, so I found a distance learning program at LSU..."

2004 was one of the best and most bittersweet years of my life, I had no shortage of friends and things to do. That year I really got closer to my family and made new friends who are still around to this day. By day I would work on multiple jobs, not that I was financially hurting, my main two jobs were doing security and the other two were on call audio/visual jobs. It was nothing to take a nap and then go and help build a set for a concert or convention, meet my friends on St Ann and Bourbon for drinks, then wake up on one of their sofas. So let me be clear, it was a group of us, and it was normal for my friend Zargus to have his van and an ice chest with booze. We would all stay out until, hell the sun would beat us to our homes. I grown close to one who I would call my chosen brother, stacey (I hope he doesn't get pissed) and he would eventually move to houston toward the middle of the year.

His relocation to Houston was a foreshadowing of things to come, because by July I was hit with another loss. Remember in the last post I said that "...I sustained a major loss to my support system, the hit and run death of David. Remember that David, Willie, and Galen were my support system and somehow it slowly began to disintegrate." Well, for the month of July I had not heard from Willie and it was just not like him to not call. Me, Willie and other friends would hit the movies at least twice in a month, but when the movie day rolled around something just did not feel right. I called his parents house (he was living with them) and his dad answered the phone, and when I asked for Willie, I was told "He died yesterday" (in a calm voice). I seriously thought that I had the wrong phone number, it didn't hit me until the third phone call that I heard it all right. Come to find out that Willie was in the hospital and didn't want me to know.


Not long after this, Hurricane Ivan seemed to be headed toward New Orleans and prompted me to evacuate to Houston with a friend. For me this was a foreshadowing to the fact that I would be moving to Houston. Anyway the rest of the year would go by fast and this is where I would meet my equivalent to Mr. Big (Sex and the City) and like I said before, "I felt a shift towards the end of 2004...around and after my twentieth birthday I start to have really bad dreams about my street sign and water. I never paid any attention to the recurring dreams and went through the fall and winter as usual. But then this winter was different too, the weather was weird and on Christmas day, A DAY WE NORMALLY WEAR SHORTS ON, it snowed!!! I actually played in that snow long enough to make snowballs, mind you we could only get those at a stand in seven plus flavors."

2005 - The Houstonian


"By the spring I kept feeling this nagging itch to leave NOLA, like something bad was going to happen. Things were happening to make me want to leave, my friends were leaving, I lost my job and the dreams kept getting worse. By late may the dreams were the same images but this time with floating bodies, I would wake up in tears trying to understand what was happening and if I needed to seek psychiatric help. Anyway, by that point I made the decision to leave my stuff behind and head to Houston and see if I would like it. I would remain a legal resident of New Orleans, left most of my stuff behind and made it to Htown with the clothes on my back." I Got to Houston and hit the ground running, my best friend Stacey opened his home to me and I found a job within days. Big moved out to Houston with me and we shared an apartment together, eventually we were both itching to move back home. The plan was to move back to my old apartmentment and then:

 For more a deeper look at my Katrina experience click here...In the final two installments to this series I will talk about my experience with being HIV Positive and how I came out about it. Finally I will talk about being openly Atheist.

Monday, October 5, 2015

My Coming Out Story: Tragedy & Triumph

Previously: "By the time I was seventeen I had transitioned into my own home with and even had a partner for a while. Old enough to work, I held down work and juggled school in the process. At this point I transitioned to High school number three for the opportunity to have a better education and work my way back into my original high school, where my story began, by this point it was 2002."

It was a very interesting summer in 2002, I had just finished my Junior year of high school, continued to work, and have fun. By this point I was seventeen still partnered up(but on the decline) and unsuspecting of the changes that would come over the next three years. Starting with my Senior year back at the high school where I first started, my re-introduction to the campus came as a surprise to many. It was Ironic that I needed an elective and the elective that I just so happen to have picked, I forget the name, but it was the class that managed the morning TV announcements. You know, the morning announcements where I participated in the launch of the Student Alliance For Equality? Well, this time I sat in as anchor of the very first broadcast on the first day of school. Now if that isn't Ironic, then I don't know what to tell you. 

Over the years I maintained many of the friendships from each point and transition and began to nurture old connections as well. I have to say that one of those connections that will never die is a friend named Jessika, we had our days, but she will always be my chosen sister. Aside from the tidbit about friends, Fall 2002 and all of 2003 brought about many changes, turmoil and triumph. Everything got off to a great start, but by October of 2002 I was transitioning from partnered to single and dealing with the depression that it caused. In that same month, I enlisted into the Army for the fact that I was still reeling from 9/11/2001(which I will not talk about) and in protest of the Don't Ask Don't Tell policy. My enlistment was done via some coercion, I was still seventeen and I told my mother to either sign or that I would be eighteen in a month and I would go either way. She went ahead and signed to give consent for my enlistment. The year progressed on and I went to my reserve drills once a month, I transitioned from depression back to some form of normalcy again.

When 2003 came around, I began to deal with major Gains and losses, starting with the fact that my senior year was tumultuous coupled with missing credits on my transcript due to transitions from school to school. Of course, had some preventable shortfalls on my end that I fixed or attempted to fix to my benefit, but when the eleventh hour hit, I did not graduate because I was missing a half unit of geometry (no fails just that the class was only worth half a credit). Leading up to graduation I and those who supported me on the academic level to attempted to fix the issue, by going as far as enrolling to take the class at a night school, which only satisfied the half that I did get and couldn't afford the other half.  In the midst of that issue, I sustained a major loss to my support system, the hit and run death of David. Remember that David, Willie, and Galen were my support system and somehow it slowly began to disintegrate.


David was on his way home headphones in his ear listening to his music & a drunk white lady name Gwendolyn Blanchard ran him down @ 85 miles an hour, she told the police that she thought she hit a big black dog. She drove back & forth to shake David from up under her car & the police didn't stop her until she made it to her house in St. Bernard Parish. This sent me into a dark place for quite a while, but my remaining friends helped me through it, David was not much older than I was when he died. Taking on that loss, coupled with the fact that I couldn't go to summer school to fix my graduation issue and having to deploy to basic training was a total disaster. I went through basic, being stubborn because I wanted that damn diploma that I worked my ass off for, the diploma would somehow honor David and his willingness to look out for me. 

I deployed and as basic progressed I came to a point when I decided to protest the fact that someone used some racial and anti gay slurs toward me and a couple of other people, I went to my drill sergeant and ran down the fact that I wanted to leave that hostile environment, that I was protesting the DADT policy and that I wanted to finish school. In my infinite stubbornness, I pushed forward with a General Discharge instead of just getting that damn GED at the time, I only really saw one way forward and that was my way. I can say now that the lesson was learned and that things happen for a reason. In a nutshell, I did great in the Army and decided to fore go a career before it even started. I left basic and returned home to New Orleans and immediately enrolled in school and they wanted me to take all of these different classes that I did not need, so I found a distance learning program at LSU. In the next post you will find out that it wasn't all bad, that these events shaped me into the fighter that I am today. Thank you for allowing me to share my story and for taking the time to read it.





Friday, October 2, 2015

My Coming Out Story: LGBT & Homeless

On November fifth I will be thirty one years old and to celebrate my approaching birthday, I will give a snapshot of the whos, whys, and whats that developed me into the Ashton that you know today. In a previous post I gave insight into how I came out and hints as to how the event affected my life. In this post I will go into details that I have never shared and some that most already know about.

After coming out a few months went by and in that few months I went from a stable home to living on the streets of New Orleans (at this point it was the year 2000 and 16 years old). My very first night out, I was solicited for sex by this guy and when I refused he tried to rape me on a dark corner in the French Quarters where the tourists normally don't go. It was on this night I was saved by a Transwoman not many years older than me and made my first friend in this new life that I had been thrust into. Many of the friends that I had made and the life that I knew before this point were still around, they just didn't see me a whole lot and did not really ever know the situation.

During this time I would go to school less and less as I searched for a job during the day and would spend the night by a childhood friend when his mother wasn't at home. I had made several attempts to stay at the local Covenant House to find that I needed parental or guardian permission to stay. To make a long story short for most of my 16th year of life, I went from pillar to post with older men attempting to take advantage of my body and my young mind, for which they were not aware that I was smart and had common sense. I flunked out of school in the midst of trying to survive and managed get a family member to register me the next year at a school districted to my former home address. Through all of the attempts to take advantage of me including those attempted rapes, by my count four attempts on my life by different men ALL wanting sex and subsequently my refusal generating two of the four attempts to be at knife point, one at gun point and the other where the guy tried to strangle me.


It wasn't all bad, I began to lay the groundwork by continuing to be active in my community and the high school that I managed to get into and built my GPA back up. Along the way, a turning point came in the form of three men who would change my life forever. Willie and David who I met first and later Galen took me in without question, without taking advantage of me and gave me shelter, food, and clothing. These three strong Black gay men only wanted three things from me: 1. For me to finish High school, and made sure I had uniforms and a way to school. 2. For me to see that people do care and that I had a family whether it was chosen or not. 3. For me to be comfortable with who I was and am, to be free. I was their equal, though under age and we grew and learned from each other, I carry their love with me in my heart to this very day. By the time I was seventeen I had transitioned into my own home with and even had a partner for a while. Old enough to work, I held down work and juggled school in the process. At this point I transitioned to High school number three for the opportunity to have a better education and work my way back into my original high school, where my story began, by this point it was 2002.

In the next post I will talk about my transition from young adult to legal adulthood....